>> Monday, September 26, 2011
Today would have been my mom's 79th bday. I say "would have been" because she now resides full time in Heaven and from what I understand isn't on our time clock any longer. I awoke this morning and prayed as I do every morning, but this morning I asked the Lord to scoop my mom up in His arms and give her a big b-day hug and kiss for me. I also asked Him if He would please ask the Heavenly Hosts to sing to her for me. I don't know if He did, but I kinda like to think that He would do that for me. :)
My mom has been with the Lord for 6 1/2 years now. Yes, I miss her, but oh how I praise God that I know - that I know - I will see her again!!! I have to tell you, though, that when the Lord unexpectedly called my mom Home is when He got my full attention. I felt like Jacob who wrestled with God until I got some much needed answers. Yesterday Pastor Curtis talked about praying with urgency and not just offering up e-mail prayers. I understood that. I knew what he meant because I did get in God's presence and asked Him some very hard questions that I was desperate for Him to answer. I stayed in that state for a year and a half until I got my final need met from that entire ordeal. It has been quite a ride since then too. Now I am so happy to report that I abide in His presence daily. Is life perfect? No. But I can tell you with great sincerity that I wouldn't go back for anything in the world. I tried it the world's way. Doing life God's way is so much more fun and enjoyable! I traded my sorrows for joy. He turned my mourning into dancing and I have been dancing with Him daily for over 6 years now.
I'm just wondering what it is that you are desperate for God to do in your life. Do you need some answers to some questions? Are you desperate for a healing in your health, your marriage, your relationships, your finances? I just want to encourage you to press in and get in His presence. Seek Him above all else. Talk to Him as your friend. Approach boldly the Throne of Grace and Abundance. I'm still believing and waiting for a miracle that I have been praying about for over 20 years. I know God can do it and one day He will. Until then, I am going to continue to press in and wait with hope and anticipation. Without hope we die and wither away. I pray God's richest blessings upon you and all those you love.